August 2008

Hooper, Taylor

Professional headshot photographer located in New York City.

Keijzer, Julius

Photo portfolio of Julius Keijzer - portraits, urban stills, architecture.

Brown Iguana

Stalking brown iguana.

the hardest thing i have ever had to do - 2 Aug 2008 - Flickr

is watch you walk away and not be able to run after you.

Today was so hard - so so so so so freaking hard. And I’m going to completely vomit up all my feelings into this description and be a complete girl and over emotional because right now I really need to get it all out because I’m so heartbroken and I just don’t know what to do with myself. I really just don’t know what to do with myself. I’m just sat here, I could shower but I don’t have the energy or drive to get up and stand there in the water, I don’t have the motivation to walk into the town or just go downstairs and get something to eat. My love is gone. I had to stand there while he went up the escalator and watch him leave, I was crying so hard behind him. In the car home I couldn’t think straight, it feels like I’ve lost part of my mind, like part of me is missing - all of his things are gone from my room, and I’ve been searching for something to remind me that it wasn’t all a dream. I have no idea what to do from here. I need my Aaron back. I’m hurting so hard!!! And its not just missing being able to see him and touch him and talk to him, I miss being able to turn to him and just knowing he is at most a few meters away from me. This is so hard. I had no idea how hard this was going to be. I guess it doesn’t really help that I have Damien rice on repeat. My mind is so twisted right now, i feel like all my insides have been tied up in knots and my bones have been replaced with paper, I feel so weak

I’ve never needed someone so much in all my life, and I’m not a needy person - I love being alone so much I purposely isolate myself a lot of the time, but now I’ve felt what its like to be loved and be part of something other than myself I feel so helpless. I’ve never been loved so unconditionally like Aaron loves me - he is the most amazing person on this earth, ever to have lived - he is my world, he is my life and he is everything to me, without him i’m not even just a mess, i’m a purposeless mess. Like now, i’m just sat here doing nothing but crying and sniffing really loudly, and it really hurts. This is so freaking hard. I need you
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DJs Photo Studio

Photo gallery of mainly landscape pics taken on the Maltese Islands.